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Drunken Pilot
04:02
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Drunken Pilot
She said what’s up with this modern love
You decide then there’s the rub
Dogs were barking through the misty air
I barely remember what it means to care
Show a little mercy on my rotten soul
I’m a drunken pilot losing control
She grabbed my hand and looked in my eyes
Hoping for me to apologize
Somebody else is working these bones
I only feel right when I’m all alone
I feel laid bare for the world to see
There’s some kind of flaw inside of me
Let me simmer in my sins I’m not feeling anything
The bug light zappin’ as she starts to cry
I try and make a face like I seem surprised
My momma told me when I was short and dumb
You can never count on anyone
There’s a fire in the hills I see smoke from my roof
Breathe it in my lungs as I lay here mute
I know that I can never really give enough
There’s nothing in me that resembles love
Watching the world from a screened in porch
I imagine everything all razed and scorched
Hold me down in the water ‘til my breath is gone
I’m tired of being so god damned wrong
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2. |
Broken Watches
04:15
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Broken Watches
I have that picture of you standing holding an ice cream cone
And there’s a 1970’s breeze
Blowing your curly hair around like cotton candy
Your skin is soft and pale and I can almost feel it against my finger
I’m sure you’ve had your first kiss your first cigarette
But maybe you’d never flown in a plane across the Atlantic
I can tell you like carnivals and you were against the war
You had an older brother who went over you won’t see anymore
The cold cold war is all you ever seem to dream about
You wake up sweating through your tank top
Worried there’s someone walking around in the house
And you can’t seem to get yourself out of bed… I relate
There’s not a bird in the world you don’t know the name of
Though really you’ve only ever seen a few
You can still remember the card tricks you learned a kid
But you only every break them out at parties when you’re tipsy
Maybe you took a trip all the way down to Florida
Watched whales jumping through the air at Sea World
You saw your grandma Ida holed up in the trailer park
And pressed your head against her heaving chest you knew she loved you
The cold cold war is all you ever seem to dream about
You wake up sweating through your tank top
Worried there’s someone walking around in the house
And you can’t seem to get yourself out of bed… I relate
I found your picture walking down the street when I was your age
in a box full of broken watches
I’ve kept you with me through these crazy windy years
I guess I like the way you keep time stopping how you’re frozen
Has some new worry supplanted those old dreams
Maybe I’ve passed you walking down these streets
Goddamn I’ve been grieving I lost my only human
Most days are a bear thick and consuming
But I still have your picture and sometimes it takes me away
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3. |
Keep Moving
03:03
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Keep Moving
I saw you outside in the yard
Shaking your fist up at the sky
And your dress was at your feet
With the neighbors walking by
I don’t know about what happened
I can barely keep my pants on
Things are getting out of hand
Even when I’m in a spiral
I’d like to be a good man
Didn’t know what I should do
Felt like we were in a movie
I walked slowly up to you
Seemed as though you knew me
How in the world did I get here
Wrapped my coat around your shoulders
Walked you over to the porch
You were sullen soft and shaky
So I knocked on the door
I stayed a while but no one answered
So I left you with my coat
There’s nothing here I can believe in
It never goes as I had hoped
There’s always something underneath
I never know what I am doing
Always loving in the worst way
Maybe I need to keep moving
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4. |
A New Way of Being
04:07
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A New Way of Being
I’m trying to break my own bones
Reshape the shape I have taken
Calibrate the facts I’ve distorted
Remake the roads I’ve mishapen
I notice the afternoon light
Creeping away like a burglar
Worried about what comes next
Shaking myself into fervor
Recognize I’m just a baby
A shadow of who I have been
Shifting and scrubbing erasing
Wallowing in this new skin
I’m searching for something to believe in
A new way of knowing old truths
I remember a system of being
But somehow I lost the proof
Inside I can feel subtle shifting
Erasing what I used to be
I’ll ride out the road like a cowboy
Despite all the evidence I see
Recognize I’m just a baby
A shadow of who I have been
Shifting and scrubbing erasing
Wallowing in this new skin
I’m watching the birds from the bridge
Thinking of new ways to live
Reconsidering my options (every possibility)
Washing out all of the toxins
I notice some calm in the morning
There’s always hope in the dawn
Everyone knows this is fleeting
We’re here for a moment then gone
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Fragile Bones
03:56
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Fragile Bones
The walls have all swelled from the heat and humidity
And you in the yard in a moment of lucidity
Looking back at the house that your late uncle built
You can almost see the blood and the sweat that spilt
Remembering the summers spent on that riverboat
The way your dad would dole out little anecdotes
Speaking on the way things used to be
And his father before that damn disease
You wonder about the blood
That’s circling these bodies
Hiding in your skin for all these years
Your mother said that praying never helped a sinful man
Now in this perspective you begin to understand
There’s a hopelessness buried in your fragile bones
A history for which you can’t atone
Sasha in the morning with the light across her face
Makes you feel like history and time can be erased
She wakes up and stretches like a cat
You can feel your spirits coming back
You wonder about the blood
That’s circling these bodies
Hiding in your skin for all these years
You’ve only ever known a vengeful god
Recognize the ways in which you’re flawed
Still you wish to find someone to call on
To thank for the moments you’re not falling
You wonder about the blood
That’s circling these bodies
Hiding in your skin for all these years
Isn’t it weird
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6. |
Panes of Glass
04:17
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Panes of Glass
Rows of corn stretching long
Houses falling to the earth
Justified telling lies
Don’t forget that you were first
You’ve been taking these photographs
From the back of a bus
Looking through those panes of glass
Wondering if you’ll be missed
Scattered bones catacombs
Left to bleach out in the sun
I can’t feel it there’s a rage
You should see what I’ve become
You’ve been taking these photographs
From the back of a bus
Looking through those panes of glass
Wondering if you’ll be missed
There’s a light on in the bedroom
Of the window where you slept
I remember every detail
You always said I was obsessed
California can’t compare to
How I saw you in the glow
Swear to god I’ll endure (continue remain)
Holding out until it snows
You’ve been taking these photographs
From the back of a bus
Looking through those panes of glass
Wondering if you’ll be missed
Is there anything left of us
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7. |
Georgia Sky
03:28
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Georgia Sky
Lacey on the bus as the sun burns out
She says I don’t really like my own mind
Every time I try and fall asleep these days
It feels like I’m battling Frankenstein
And I’m stranded left behind
Jenny takes her hand and says hush my love
You know that I’d never let you disappear
I listen to you talking to your god sometimes
Quietly when you think no one hears
About hunger and your fears
Lacey whispers with her eyes closed
I could use a little antidote
And the moon is nearly full
And they’re so far from where they need to go
Watching through the window at the blurry sky
Everyone seems to be dead asleep
Lacey looks longing into Jenny’s eyes
Tell me my peach what’s the matter with me
I can’t loosen this disease
Sorry my love I need to get some rest
Jenny tells Lacey then shuts her eyes
Lay your little rabbit head on my lap
When we wake up we’ll be hypnotized
By the cleansing Georgia sky
Lacey whispers with her eyes closed
I could use a little antidote
And the moon is nearly full
And they’re so far from where they need to go
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8. |
My Father
03:43
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Your Father
The breath from your mouth like tiny white clouds
As the war rages on in your head
You sense some impending a pressure some looming
A storm that builds ‘til you’re dead
Watching the children leaving the building
Swathed in their colorful scarves
You think of your daughter still in Chicago
The husband who shattered her nerves
You’ve been up thirty four hours
Hoping to make it in time
He was gone you never saw him
Now you’re half loaded on wine
Hearing the language so twisted and tangled
Trying to pick up some words
You look for the building where you and your siblings
Lived before it grew absurd
You can’t remember all your offenders
The names lost to hard years
You still see the faces it’s all so contagious
There’s nobody left here who cares
You’ve been up thirty four hours
Hoping to make it in time
He was gone you never saw him
Now you’re half loaded on wine
Where was your mother who left here that summer
Your father said she must have died
Sometimes you wonder how he once won her
He always seemed barely alive
Lurching and stumbling yelling and singing
You look to the windows above you
You see the faces stern and impatient
As you bathe in the troubles of youth
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Crawl in My Rib Cage
03:35
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Crawl in My Rib Cage
If I heard you right you’ve been switching things up
Consciously falling out of love
Learning to turn it on and off
Like an ice cap growing soft
I swear to god there must be cheese in your ears
You know I’d never disappear
All I mean is that we’re in some shit
And we need to get out of it
Crawl in my rib cage where it’s warm
And nothing ever causes harm
Shake out these branches for the fruit
I’ve got plenty here for two
If I’m correct there’s this definite shift
A distancing from the crowd you’re with
Some wavering a changing guard
You’re amazing and bizarre
There’s a satellite hovering high
Taking photographs as you divide
Cataloging every nuanced move
As your luster burns through
Crawl in my rib cage where it’s warm
And nothing ever causes harm
Shake out these branches for the fruit
I’ve got plenty here for two
Listen to the sound of the rain on the fire
Watch how the smoke trails creep like a spider
I can’t remember when I last heard you laugh
But there’s so much we can leave along the path
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10. |
Running Faster
02:52
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Running Faster
I’m a little bit out of breath It’s exactly as she said
There’s a satellite falling through the sky Toward my head
Why would I be this surprised Guess I should apologize
No amount of anything will make it All right
Time is a bastard Always seems to run faster
Now I’m stuck I’m trapped in This hereafter
I never asked for your opinion Why would I when I’m winning
Now I’m looking for a secret passage back To the beginning
All the phone calls and letters God damn they upset her
I’m remembering the first time I wrote Forever
Time is a bastard Always seems to run faster
Now I’m stuck I’m trapped in This hereafter
I need a rain to wash it clean A little snow on these machines
Let’s draft a brand new deal I’m in love with how it used to feel
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Sharpest Bulb
02:22
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Sharpest Bulb
Whaddya want from me I’m doing the best I can
With the tools I have
Everything gets funny you’re in a way again
Whadid you mean by that
Your mother called me shit for brains I guess that’s fair
I’ve never been the sharpest bulb in the drawer fore sure
I can’t breathe so good your sucking up all the oxygen
You don’t ever stop
Watch me dissipate turn into a cloud again
Leaking like a pig
Your mother called me shit for brains I guess that’s fair
I’ve never been the sharpest bulb in the drawer fore sure
I know that I can be self depreciating
For all intensive purpose I’m laying in waiting
I’m just biting time hoping to proceed
I’ll extract revenge and get off scotch free
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12. |
Two Magnets
04:55
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Two Magnets
Driving through the mesmerizing snow
I’m at light speed a torpedo
Haven’t dropped my plow down for an hour
I get nervous I’m a coward
I pull into the High Horse for a whiskey
Half the town is there getting tipsy
A woman with no shoes on in a bear suit
Winks at me as though we’re in cahoots
She got up on the bar and started shoutin’
I was conceived under the Old Man of the Mountain
My parents were two magnets misfit lovers
Who turned around and now repel each other
Watching waiting wishing I was loaded
She came to me as if she floated
We danced across the floor with my friends gawking
We knew each other without talking
She ran her fingers through my thinning hair
Entranced by my spinning bear
I’d never felt a feeling so electric
Skeptics make it hard to be connected
She got up on the bar and started shoutin’
I was conceived under the Old Man of the Mountain
My parents were two magnets misfit lovers
Who turned around and now repel each other
I stepped to the bar to hear her raving
She jumped into my arms she needed saving
Somehow it seemed right us here together
she whispered in my ear like a feather
Long before the boulders started breaking
The love they shared soured into hating
It’s weird this crazy history we wind through
I knew if I came back here I would find you
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